OK, in a week I learn what my blood results are. Since the doctor wants me on the EFMP (Exceptional Family Member Program) I know that something’s up. Most likely this is for my past diagnosis of Bipolar. A diagnosis I am now trying to contest and get a re-diagnosis. I have to get an MRI for twitching and fainting spells, which is why my friends I keep leaving the bar early on Tuesdays. My worst twitching episodes happen at about 10:00 Pm and it is embarrassing for me to have others see me smacking myself. Anyway, I get that done Friday and Wednesday.
The doctor will evaluate my blood results. I need to talk to the doctor about this damn black spot that appeared on my eyelid. I have been having these problems for months (the twitching, migraines and fainting problem). It took Aaron dragging me to the doctor to do something about it. My own concerns had been so focused on my personal displeasure at being born in a female body that the health of said body really didn’t matter.
So I had a conversation with Aaron last night. I asked him if it was normal to see what I could only describe as television static in front of everything one sees. He told me no.
So for my friends, I ask, is this normal? I know the silver static that blocks out my entire vision is not normal, but my vision is always blocked with light static in front. I wonder, is it normal?
Today: So this was before they diagnosed me with hypothyroidism and epilepsy. The lump I spoke of on my eye in this prior journal turned out to be a blood tumor, and I just had surgery on it after two years of ignoring it.
1/18/2021 I wish I dated the “today” on this post, so I knew when that was. But I wrote the original post in 2010 and the second entry was likely 2012-13 ish. The fainting was a separate condition from my epilepsy. The cardiologist suspects but still has not diagnosed me with POTS. I am hoping to see Dr. Grubb eventually and find out if I have POTS and EDS. Those with autoimmune issues often have more than one medical problem. It is a fact with chronic illness.
5/18/2022 This post has been edited for grammatical issues.
Wish to support us? You can on Patreon: The Shadow’s Lair.