Feel trapped, mourning the dream,
Cut to pieces nothing left to see.
How do you bleed when vein dry?
A empty world filled with icy lies,
I can’t fight when others rather I die.
Every turn I’m wicked, narcissist,
Or I’m hated, othered, unwanted.
I file away the pain, slots of mind,
Empty, cold, no empathy to find.
Makes me worthless, no place for me.
Wake me from this misery,
This corpse tires as king of agony.
When will this damn curse lift,
Where is the supposes gift.
That life is suppose to be
Denied, rejected, forced to mask.
Hide dysphoria, depression, desire to die.
Hide my rage, my existence, wake alone.
I am done fighting on my own.
Please, crying out, desperate not to die.
Save me, I’m drowning in this sea!
Help so I can be who I see inside!
Tag Archives: Actually Autistic
The Brave “disability” Mom
Lookie here! it’s a mom
who wants a cookie.
So brave she is,
Her struggles oh so hard!
Wow just admire her sacrifice
but alas her b.s. it’s all a lie.
This mom just needs to retire!
Instead she schemes
And scams away.
While setting her child
on a metaphorical fire!
note: I wrote this in reply to a mom who was using her daughter to raise money on gofundme to fund ABA therapy.
A Brief Statement On ABA
In the #ActuallyAutistic Community it is well known that ABA is abusive. All ABA, is abusive and this blog doesn’t support those who claim any form is not or articles citing “safe ABA”.
A great paper was written by the Facebook page Ask an Autistic` on ABA and a great blog is currently being ran with plenty info on this. Go Here for More on Why ABA is Abusive.
“ABA is abusive because it forces autistic children to undergo undue stress up to the point of panic and overstimulation while suppressing their ability to regulate this stress by forbidding stimming and self regulation activities. It violates their autonomy as a person and ignores ideas of consent. This kind of isolation style abuse between an authority and an individual would be considered inhumane in any other case yet we put young children through this. The result, not suprisingly, is ptsd as indicated by many autistic adults who have been through ABA.” -DAMIEN
If asked why it is abusive by allistic “Autism Parents *tm” feel free to use my answer here or link to the resources .
Further Reading:
Rock’n’Roll Tattoo and Piercing Glasgow Does Not Listen to Autistic Voices
Greetings blog followers, I recently informed you all in another post that I am autistic. Over a week ago a page in the UK, particularly Glasgow asked autistic people what flash designs we would like to see for a charity. Many of us, including myself asked for the neurodiversity symbol also known as the rainbow infinity. I would have screens of this except I did not expect that not only would they not listen but in an effort to avoid accountability they deleted the thread.
The Shade of Writing 