Tag Archives: FTM transition

Unreal Face

by The Shadow

At day’s end who am I?
A wanderer? A poet? Artist?
I am a lost soul painting
On the canvas of the heart
Word are my colours, imagery
These stories faded memories

Who am I really?
A broken dreamer, unreal
Hoping to be so

When the day comes I find me
Starimg back in the bathroom mirror
I might seek to love again
Who is she? that face isn’t me
the void is such a constant misery
I know with time i’ll be free

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Years of Change

by The Shadow

Pics from 2011, 2014, and 2018! look how I’ve grown and changed. I will be starting back on testosterone this February. I am very excited. Wish me luck!

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Transform (2011)

by The Shadow

By Damien Knight

I remind myself what I feel
The ever turning wheel
Tells me how cruel life is
This body lies, it is remiss
I’ve painted myself a mask
To avoid the important task
Of acknowledging my fate
I can’t be me it’s too late
Still I must or I’d rather die
This mask I wear a broken lie
My dream is to transform
Become the man I always known

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Chest Binders

by The Shadow

New chest binder! It had been a while since my last binder purchase. It isn’t perfect but it works. Good binder protocol, if able pull over legs and hips to avoid getting stuck. Hand wash to help them last longer or low cycle and air dry. #Binders #ftm #selfmademan

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Surgery Costs

by The Shadow

Damien Knight

So I am starting to save for surgery. a quick search shows that top surgery is at best estimate 5000 plus masculinizing surgery another 5000 so my goal is going to be between 10-15 thousand for surgery. If anyone can help I sell jewellery here, have a gofundme and you can support me on patreon. 

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And there we have it. Thanks everyone for continued support.  Updated 11/16/2018

Being on Testosterone

by The Shadow

By Damien Knight

So this past Thursday I was given the prescription for testosterone. I took my first shot and I didn’t expect to feel any immediate changes. I haven’t really but I noticed I feel calmer. Like as time has passed I have felt unusually chill. The other thing is yesterday and today my voice sounds off. It isn’t a difference that is extremely noticeable. People would maybe think I had a cold. I keep saying well maybe you are imagining it you know a sort of “Placebo” effect. I am not imagining the oily skin though. I also noticed a increase in my sex drive in the past 3 days which is aggravating. Is it normal?

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The Shadow’s Journey Vlog T-Inject 2

by The Shadow

Testosterone Injection FTM Trans Part 2 (by Damien Knight)

I hated my voice in these videos.

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