Tag Archives: Grief

Today We Celebrate

by The Shadow 
Today we weep, 
Grieve the loss which burdens us
Today we mourn,
The empty shell which was left behind
Today we cry,
For those this year that had to die
Today…
We prepare traditional foods
Today we gather,
In honour of their memory
Today we rejoice, 
In the shared lives we had with them
Today we remember,
That they have never left us and so…
Today we celebrate,
Keeping their love for us alive

Grieved Heart

by The Shadow 
Open weeping break me down
how to smile? Dust on the ground
Float away leave me here
Drifting in these tears

Left alone to stare blank
At all the passing years
Memories flow away 
Left with just my fears

You asked us to celebrate
But all I can do is break
The stream drowning me inside
May I drink and die?

Why must this hurt so much
The house so empty without you
Where is your laugh your touch
All I have are these memories

The house will empty of trace
And someday I may forget your face
And if I ever do I rather be gone now
Than to live thinking I'd forget somehow

To live

by The Shadow

The world fades from view
The sky darkens and I slip
Into a slumber eternal
When do we wake again?
Will I see you in that world?
Alas I can only hope you wait
There with your golden hair
On that side, Dear Ellewyn
And when we do I know
Two sweet grey cats
and my loving Calico sit
With you across that bridge
The world slips until that day
A blur of grief and joys
Until I must remember to live

Mushrooms (April 27th, 2018)

by The Shadow

I saw the mushrooms growing on the trees
Transported to distant memories
Your golden hair, light airy laugh as we talk
“see these they are…” I continue to walk
How I regret my disinterest now
I thought my heart would heal somehow
But those mushrooms reminded me of you
The tears stain like the rain use to
When we danced and held hands in it
Will I ever heal, will I one day forget?
If you were here my beloved Misty
Would you identify the mushrooms for me?

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Ellewyn, please.

by The Shadow

I tried so hard year after year
To forget the aching dream
How do I carry on you’re not with me
I loved and let go and my fears
You never did return, the one I couldn’t save
How I sometimes hurt so much
Wishing only to join you on the other side
For now I can only see your grave
Forgive me, I tried to move past this
Yet every year on this fateful day
Of how your Radiance was cut short
My light, Ellewyn, I beg forgiveness

In memory of Misty, April 5, 2005.

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Pained Memory

by The Shadow

By Damien Knight

I think of her more and more
I think could I do anything
Would it have changed anything
The song on the radio, I cry as it plays
“I been kissed by the rose on a grave”
I haven’t even gone, I’m not so brave
I’ve not laid a rose in her name
I don’t want to believe it isn’t the same
I never wanted to believe she’s left me
That her beautiful eyes I’ll never see
Her blonde hair never again touch
Oh why does her memory hurt so much

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Crystal Dreams

by The Shadow

by Damien Knight

Who was the girl in my dreams?
She was new.
Blonde hair, eyes light blue.
Who was she that I did see?
She didn’t resist,
I went for the kiss.
What kind of dream is this?
Was it you, my Ellewyn?
A ghost in my pale blue house?
Sat on my bed, lipstick in hand,
Eyes on me pierced, a command.
Those crystal orbs like the sky.
Won’t shake my words,
“I love your company,
Stay with me.”
Arms around you we kiss,
That is the love I miss.
I sit crying at the memory.
You closed the door,
And were lost to me.
I will love you forever,
My tears like streams.
I can’t forget our shattered dreams

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A Deep Grief

by The Shadow

By Damien Knight 

I have a large family and so dont keep in touch with everyone like I’d like. Last week my dad surprised me with a text, my youngest Cousin had just lost his son. Devestating, my Cousin Jake was one of few people who accepted me right away when I came out.  He’s a cool kid and it deeply saddens me to know he and Heather lost their baby. Anyway they need help raising money for funeral expenses. If any one wants to help here is their page. For Cayson thanks.